30 December 2008

Hmmm

I dont know what to write!
What a conundrum!

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10 December 2008

Irritating.

So I have been thinking more and more about things that irritate me: about me, about others I know, about people in general. I have been compiling this list in my mind for a while. I just have never gotten around to posting it until now, today, December 10, 2008 at 10:43pm (give or take several minutes as it will take a bit to type up and post).

Things that Annoy Me
  • Girls with really squeaky/high pitched voices that sound as though talking causes them pain. It's not cute. Cut it out.
  • Leggings as pants. Unless paired with a cute dress, or long top, it just doesn't work. Especially with Ugg boots. Stop it.
  • Too much mascara. Spider lashes are NOT cute. Calm down with the Maybelline and go au natural.
  • People who carry $100 bills wrapped around their $20s, $10s, $5s and $1s, and try and pay for a $1.75 cup of coffee with it, stating "But it's all I have!" NO IT IS NOT, YOU PIECE OF SHIT. Because once I tell you that you will be recieving $5s and $1s back as change, suddenly you have a $20, or a debit card. Fuck you.
  • People who don't seem to understand that a) we are required to rebrew coffee after 30 minutes. B) Sometimes, when a lot of people come in, we run out of coffee, and have to start a new batch. If you can't wait 2 minutes for a fresh batch, why the FUCK are you here?
  • Girls who dress like whores at parties, and still expect to be respected. If I was a guy, and a girl was rubbing her goodies up on me, and she acts affronted if I told her she was hot, I'd laugh in her face.
  • Boys who have girlfriends who think it's okay to fuck other girls. That shit's not cool, asswipe.
  • People who have no common courtesy.
  • People with no common sense.
  • People who don't protect themselves when having sex and then worry about being pregnant. Wrap it, take a pill, or don't bitch about potentially being pregnant. Thank you.
  • Fat ugly socially awkward bitches who sit in classrooms and profess to be all knowing. I hate you.
  • I hate being so judgmental.
  • Annoying co-workers who think God is sending them to Long Beach.
  • Same co-worker who interrupts constantly, and belittles his co-workers as well.
  • Waking up early.
  • Stale Cheezits.
  • Old gum.
  • Ants.
  • Math.
  • People who don't bathe. Come ON.
  • Tampons with cardboard applicators. FUCK THEM.
  • The fact that I cannot keep my room clean to save my life.
  • People who don't stop at stop signs.
  • People who don't use their turn signal.
  • People who drive shitty in general.
Edited to add:
  • the fact that I have no self-control when it comes to money. I SUCK.
  • There are no fucking cookies/brownie mix/ANYTHING DESSERT like in my house.
  • People who take 8778272 hours to text back, in the middle of a conversation, when they have explicitly told you they are not busy. If I'm making you my fucking priority, make me yours, Jesus CHRIST.
  • The fact that I jump to conclusions far too easy.
  • I can't share my feelings.
  • My mom.
  • The fact that I have a wonderfully perfect handsome boyfriend who I feel like I do not deserve for reasons unknown.
I have many, many more. But for now, I think that is enough negativeness for one blog posting.
Good day.



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08 December 2008

Bryan said I needed to update.


Above is an extremely sexy man who I get to see in 14 days. Yup. <3333

Also, school is almost out (thank fucking GOD), Christmas is almost here, and I love the cold.

P.S. People can't drive. I hate you shitty drivers. Go fall on a dick. An old wrinkled one.

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27 November 2008

Things I'm Thankful For


Rather, I guess I should have said PEOPLE I'm thankful for. Because they are the basis of my thankfulness :)



Anyone who knows me knows that my mom is crazy, and my daddy is an awesome nerdy doctor dude. Despite my mom's crazy ways, and my dad's oddities, I still love them. <3 style="text-decoration: underline;">


My BFF. Sometimes you drive me absolutely batty, but at the end of the day, I still love you dearly. We've been through a lot, and I know it shows with our closeness. One day my pretty red-haired daughter is going to marry your handsome dark haired son. And then we'll be related for real :) <3


John, you are sometimes the most blindingly retarded bullheaded person I've ever met. But always remember I heart you, and appreciate your idiocy, useless information and pretty hair (and you still need to change squeaker's oil, kthnxbai)


Bryan, I could not think or dream up a better class ditching buddy, car driving companion or friend. We are so alike in so many ways, and I know this is why we get along. I like waxing poetic about stupid drivers, hating fellow classmates, and just generally hanging out with you. We're going to be 90 years old, driving down Willow (or, God Willing, Mulholland Drive) and go out in style, kay?


Martin, you are one of the best people I know. One day, when you get married, I know that the girl who becomes Mrs. Martin O'Hara will be the luckiest woman in the world. You're such a great and loyal friend, and imagining what I'd do without your wit and sensitivity is impossible. <3



I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now.
There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how.


And to everyone who I didn't name specifically...don't fret. I love and appreciate each and everyone of you. You are such a huge and significant part of my life. Don't go away.

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20 November 2008

Here's to you, Mr. Allstate man...




I LOVE this man
Love love love love him.
And his voice.
That is all.

19 November 2008

the strangers.




Note to self.
If I'm getting frisky with my boyfriend/husband/fiance/significant other in general, and someone knocks on the door, I'm gonna keep on truckin'.

Never answering the door.

Because you were home.

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11 November 2008

Eff you, Nicholas Sparks!


Seriously, I don't know why I do it. Even since seeing Nights In Rodanthe with Kristie and balling my eyes out, I've been reading Nicholas Sparks' novels. Why? I don't know. Perhaps I am glutton for punishment.

They are supposed to be romantic, and I guess for the most part, they ARE, but wtf. Nights in Rodanthe, A Walk To Remember and The Notebook? Fucking SAD.

Whatever one I just read, I can't remember, I borrowed it from Kristie's mother, that one was good. It had a decent ending. The one I'm reading now, The Guardian? It's good so far, but I KNOW something terrible is going to happen, because that's what Nicholas Sparks does.

I'd really like to punch him in the dick, so he knows what it's like to feel PAIN.




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09 November 2008

Sometimes


I wonder why bad things happen to good people.
And why good things happen to bad people.

I guess the whole "What doesn't kill me makes me stronger" shtick is true, but come on. At least give us a fucking explanation why the douche bag kid in your class won the lottery, and you're still living paycheck to paycheck.


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08 November 2008

Food For Thought...

if you had to eat people to survive, do you think they'd taste like their ethnic backgrounds?

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07 November 2008

I feel conflicted. I don't know what to do to make myself feel better.

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03 November 2008

Hmm =)

I really don't know what to say. I could start a blog about politics (grose) or about life (overdone).

I think just will just be a blog of happiness.
I just want to say that today I am happy.
And I'm going to work on being happy everyday.
Because it feels good to be happy.

And it feels good to be able to tell people I am happy.


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27 October 2008

Encounters With A Creeper

Okay, first of all, I hate creepers. And by creepers, I mean guys (Mainly disgusting men, aged 30 and up) who think it's okay to leer at girls.

I've encountered A LOT of creepers in my day, but NEVER BEFORE has it all been in such a short period of time. In the last two weeks, I have had three encounters with various creepy people.

Exhibit one:
Driving with Max going to pick up Bianca, we are in the wrong neighborhood. We're driving up the street, and there is an older man (probably 40 or so) shirtless, watering his lawn. I look over at him, and he smiles this pedo smile and like, flexes. Ew. No. Disgusting. And then he waves. FUCK NO.

Exhibit two: At an unnamed party (to protect the innocent of course), there is a man there. I shall call him James (this may or may not be his real name...). He's creepy. I mention something about alcohol and my tendency to do slightly dumb things and take advantage of people (in a joking manner) and he says, "WOOOO LET'S GET HER SOME MORE ALCOHOL."

Then, everytime I enter the house, he whistles. Keep in mind I'm dressed like trailer trash, so my shorts are short, etc. Disgusting.

Other shit happened but he skeeved me out so much I don't even want to fucking talk about it.

Exhibit three: Tonight in the Denny's parking lot, guy gets into big truck, and keeps staring at Max and I, smiling. CREEPY. HE JUST KEEPS SMILING. Even as he drives away! And is looking in his mirrors.

WTF.

WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DISGUSTING AND OBVIOUS!?!?!

Stop being disgusting just because you haven't been laid since the stone age (or ever at all).


CONGRATULATIONS. YOU'RE A FUCKING CREEPY FUCK!



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24 October 2008

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I hate being emo.

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19 October 2008

So.

So, of course, there has been tons of controversy surrounding this proposition. If it passes, people who are gay cannot get married.

Honestly, what is the big deal? All the religious whackos are like "GOD HATES GAYS. The Bible says it's WROOOOOOOONG."

Well, God also says leave judgment up to Him. God also says Christians should love everyone, and not condemn those who go against His word. (Bear in mind, I am voting NO on 8.)

God also says pre-marital sex is wrong, yet "Christians" still do it. The Bible says a lot of things that people do anyway. Why? Because people pick and choose what they want to believe and follow.

Another thing I keep hearing is: "Marriage won't be sacred anymore."

What the fuck. Marriage isn't sacred AT ALL. What with divorce and adultery extremely rampant, why prevent a couple who will stay together longer than a heterosexual couple from getting married?

There are also worries that OMG THEY WILL TEACH MY KIDS IT'S OKAY. (FYI: It is.)

You teach your kids what you want them to think. But someday, they'll come to their own conclusions.

People are retarded.
Screw you, bigots.











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Being sick.

I hate being sick. I like lazing about in my bed, no lie. But laying in my bed, feeling pathetic, with my head full of mucus, my nose stuffed beyond stuffed, and constantly blowing my nose, which seems to have a never ending supply of snot. And SNEEZING when you're congested? Not pretty.

Today is one of those horrible days. I woke up, feeling feverish, threw up, and was congested. I called out of work, went back to sleep. Woke up, ate something, luckily didn't vomit, but still felt icky.

I look and sound like ass. My nose is redder than Lindsay Lohan's after a coke binge, and my recently emptied garbage can is nearly full with used tissues. After two more naps, some REAL food and some OJ, I feel lots better. But still shitty.

Fuck being sick.

PLEASE. If you're sick...CALL OUT OF WORK. DON'T INFECT EVERYONE ELSE.

P.S. I <3 Anthony. Just thought I'd throw that out there :)
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STOP IT KOBE, THATS MINE.

"i make it hail. thats when you throw change on sluts. im a baller on a budget, bitch." -Daniel Tosh



He should impregnate me.
And that's all I have to say.

18 October 2008

=/

I miss him.

A lot.

15 October 2008

I CAN SHOOOOOOOW YOU THE WOOOOOOOOORLD


So I got the "Driving with Disney" album.
It is nothing short of A M A Z I N G. It's missing some of the essential Disney songs (HELLLLO, nothing from Fox & the Hound!) but maaaaaan, I am in l o v e.

I want to have a Disney movie marathon. I love Disney movies, and the simple pleasures they brought me as a child.

So, bloggy friends...
this winter break, let's have a Disney movie marathon.

I'm serious!

In other news, I had a sort of crappy day, pretty much all day. And though I am loathe to admit it, getting a phone call made me much happier. I hate that I couldn't make myself happy, and it took a certain someone to make me smile, but really, I'll take what I can get. It was great :)

I also got an A on my speech today. I don't have to worry about speech for another two weeks, wooohooo!

I also think I officially decided to wait until Spring '09 to transfer to CSUF. It will give me a chance to get some more of those upper division English classes outta the way, and considering how poorly this semester is going, also re-take (if necessary) classes I don't do well in.

I'm feeling pretty good right now. I'll head to sleep soon, and hope I wake up in a good mood :)

Night, friends.


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13 October 2008

Good weekend.

I spent the entire weekend in the presence of amazing people. I had an extremely good time.
I came to a lot of realizations as well. Nothing is as bad as it seems. There is always a silver lining to every unsavory or unsatisfactory situation.

Someone is always hurting more than you. So be thankful you aren't worse off, and wish them the best.

San Diego is so extremely beautiful.

We should all be happy we're alive :)

And now I leave you with this:


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08 October 2008

Wow.

I am failing at this blogging thing. I don't have anything witty or mildly interesting to say.

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30 September 2008

ufjhsruihgrif :)

this song. enough said. until another bloggy day.

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25 September 2008

I sometimes wish

that I could talk to my mother about things that daughters should be able to talk to their mothers about. I wish I could ask for her advice. I wish I could talk to her about what I'm feeling, without her saying "You're too young to feel such things."

The more and more I feel like I have to hide my feelings and my opinions, the more I'm determined not to be like that when I have daughters. I feel trapped, and somewhat lost. She's my mother! We should be able to talk seriously about choices I've made, things I'm thinking about and things I am doing. She's gone through similar things, I should be able to ask her questions and get honest answers.

But I know I can't.
It really is a bad feeling.

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21 September 2008

Huh.

I am not quite sure how I feel right now.
I'll get back to you.

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16 September 2008

...

Time passes too fast. No matter how much you take advantage of it, and cherish it, it still slips through your fingers like sand in a timer.

14 September 2008

Heavy.

It's been an exhaustingly amazing week.
Not gonna lie.

Too bad it's basically over :(

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05 September 2008

:)


Enough said.

02 September 2008

WSssUuUUpPpPpP BITCHES IM BLOGGING

yeee mudddddddda fuckas im blogging
heres my hai
ku
what it
do
aimee hates leggings as pants
and i take offense to that
peace in the middle east
are u jewish
cuz u ISRAELI hot??
im not drunk
aimee will write an amazing essay

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30 August 2008

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Long story short: I get to see my boo on Thursday afternoon rather than Friday!

One word: YAY!

29 August 2008

new bedding!



I got new bedding the other day, and it, I must admit, is the most amazing bedding in the entire world. It's so comfy! And pretty! And comfy! I love it!

This blog has no point, other than to show off my pretty new bedding!






P.S. One week :)

22 August 2008

antiperspirant.


You know those antiperspirants that claim that their product "stays on skin, not on clothes"?

They are a bunch of fucking liars. They belong in the same section of hell with bills, people who talk in the theatre, and bad e-bay sellers.

Example, to the left:
I have used many different types of Dove. The product works - I don't sweat, for the most part. But I always get that tell-tale white streak on my shirts. It says right on the tube stays on skin, not on clothes. So why, pray tell, is there ALWAYS that streak on my clothes!?

I have tried other types too: Secret, Degree. I even used man antiperspirant for awhile (Axe, yay!) It worked, but I smelled like a man. (Total downside, man smell is for men, end of story.)

I am so, so, so very annoyed by this deodorant debacle. Should I sue Dove for false advertising? Or is there something wrong with my skin?



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19 August 2008

It's only the second day...

and I am already discouraged by this semester.
I feel as though it is going to be the longest semester of my life.

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17 August 2008

....



I finally watched "P.S. I Love You". I didn't cry, as I thought I would (or as I would have hoped).

Now I have no idea what else to say. I thought I'd have some thoughtful blog to post regarding this movie.

I don't.
Sorry.














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16 August 2008

It's that time again....


*By the way, the above image is NOT intended to be a blatant advertisement for Office Max. I rarely shop at Office Max. I go to Target. So should you.*

School starts up again on Monday, so what does that mean? School supplies. I love buying school supplies. In fact, I think buying school supplies is my favorite thing in the world. New pens, new pencils, new highlighters, new notebooks, the works.


I got new pens the other day (my favorite kind), two packs for $1. Black & blue. Upon opening the black package and using one, though, I realized I should have gotten two packs of blue, as the black don't write as well. Oh well. They are still amazing pens, and I will never use another type ever! (That might be a lie, but I might as well show some loyalty for the time being).



Yesterday, I bought dividers, notebooks, and pencils. So I'm all done supply shopping. I already have a binder and lined paper, plenty of highlighters. It's sort of depressing, though. Supply shopping as a kid was much more fun, as you were on a quest for the best pencils, the best crayons, and the coolest folder you could find. My goal yesterday was to find a Nick Jonas folder, which, I mean, COME ON, should by all means exist considering the Jonas Brothers are HUGE. No dice. Only Joe Jonas. BARF. I am probably forgetting something important...but nothing is coming to mind.

And so, three of my new pens, three of my new pencils, a highlighter, my binder filled with a notebook and binder paper, all sit regally (*snorts*) in my new argyle patterned backpack (yep. Argyle.), prepared for the sojourn to school. Even two textbooks accompany them (so they won't be lonely, duh!)

Ahh, school supplies. How I love thee.

I just remembered what I forgot to buy.

A planner.
Shit.
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14 August 2008

It's 11:23am on August 14, 2008 and I have blogged twice today...

Still babysitting, still bored, but I made this weird realization as I was on myspace today.



Why the hell would I press 'add' if I didn't want to add it? I don't understand. That could save them quite a bit of coding and trouble, couldn't it, if they didn't have that stupid question.

It's like "You're hungry - are you SURE you want to eat?"

YES. I WANT TO ADD THE DAMN SONG. Hence why I took the time to click ADD. My God. Myspace is frustrating me. You know there is something wrong with your life when myspace frustrates you.

Writing about nothing is a lot more fun than writing about something.

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They say this kid has got soul...

It is 9:26am, and I have been up since 8:30. Lately, I've been so exhausted, that I will fall asleep at 9 or 10 pm, and wake up at 5am and think, "Hmm, I'm not tired, I'm refreshed...should I get up and make a productive day of it?"

I mull it over under the blankets and in the comfort of my bed, and finally decide, "Nope. I'll wake up when my alarm goes off at [insert time, usually around 8 or 9am]."

It's actually a great feeling being up early in the morning; I feel less like a fat sack of crap and more like a human. Granted, I don't usually accomplish much, but as I will occasionally be working in the morning during the school year, this feeling that I will be able to fall asleep early and wake up early is nice.

Currently, I am sitting in the kitchen of the house I'm babysitting at. The boys are adorable, and generally well-behaved. Their dad left me money for lunch at McDonalds, so around Noon we're going to drive over there and I'm going to let them play for a while. It will tire them out, we will get fed, and I will be able to read while they frolick :) Sounds like a good plan to Aimee, yessir it does.

I have work at 6:45 to close tonight, but I am looking forward to it for some bizarre reason. Who knows. I am happy today. I've been happy a lot of the days. It's good.

On a side note, the boys' parents have these AWESOME garlic bread rolls from Mother Mary's, and I am sad to say I've eaten four. However, J, the dad (I should probably give him another initial, as his wife's name starts with a J as well...we'll call Dad 'D' and Mom 'M'. Makes sense, ja?) told me I could eat whatever I want because otherwise he'll eat it and he doesn't have as fast of a metabolism as I do! Muhahaha. Therefore, Open mouth, insert garlic roll. YESSSSSS.

I am going to make more of an effort to blog about daily things, especially things that are funny, and I'm going to start inserting a Quote of the Day.

To start, I liked Pineapple Express. I wasn't sure how I felt about it at first, but the more I think about it, the more I love it.

Seriously, these two men are my new heroes:
Particularly the one on the right, Saul Silver (aka: James Franco). Just sayin'.

Anyway, time for quote of the day. I am going to start it off with a personal favorite of mine, which many of you (all two of you, anyway) have probably read before.


Civilization can be reduced to the following: 'I need a hug. Go away.' Unable to solve this conundrum, and having nothing better to do in the meantime, we build cathedrals and drink heavily. -Tom Price.

The End. Fin. Adios. Au Revoir. See ya. Peace.


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11 August 2008

Welp...

Summer is essentially over. I didn't do a lot of things I said I'd do, including cutting my fingernail biting habit, painting my bathroom (We didn't finish), save up lots of money and helping my mom organize the house. I did, however, clean my room. Wow. One thing off my list. I didn't get into an exercise regime. I didn't go on any trips. I didn't do a lot of things.

In a week, I will be back at school. Back to a schedule of school + work = my life. Back to "Ahh, fuck, I have a test tomorrow and I have work until midnight." Back to groaning whenever I hear my alarm go off for class. Back to homework. Back to studying.

Not much has changed over this summer. I spent a good majority of it writing letters, and sleeping, and cringing when I saw that it was 2 in the afternoon. I spent a lot of nights up until 5am.

This semester will be different. I said that last semester, but I have this feeling that Fall 2008 will be different. I'm motivated. I feel ready, for the first time in my life, to get finished. I want to be done with school. I want to move on to bigger and better things.

I am finding myself more and more frustrated with my job, and wanting to work in the morning more. The interactions are different in the morning; it's busy; there is always something to do. The nights there, while fun, have turned into cleaning cleaning cleaning because it's dead, and giving waters all night.

I've been a lot happier, lately, but at the same time, not so happy. Before I wanted to sleep, now I don't because I don't like the dreams I have. They are hard to explain. They make me feel all blah inside, but when I explain them, they seem so stupid and trivial.

I am starting to get the feeling that people who are "happy" all the time are just faking it. But, I look at those people and am jealous.
Ughhh.

This was a pointless blog, full of things I just needed to ramble on about.
It's posted here because I couldn't seem to write it down in my journal.
So, here I turn.

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30 July 2008

....

  • Write a novel.
  • Travel the world.
  • Stay up for 24 hours, doing things non-stop.
  • Watch a sunrise with someone important to me.
  • Get a Bachelor's degree.
  • Fall in love.
  • Have a family.
  • Finally have a good relationship with my family.
  • Be happy.

Things I want to do before I die.
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27 July 2008

y so srs, blog?

so here I am, writing a serious blog.
Recently (and by recently, I mean, like, yesterday) I had a conversations with some shall remain unnamed friends (though if they read it, they'd know who they are, which is sort of the point) and we were discussing thinking about the past and whatnot, amongst other things.

I made a realization several months ago that dwelling on the past (specifically speaking: about doing shitty in high school and being stuck in Fresno for now) doesn't do me any good. I recognize my fuck ups, and am learning from them, but I'm not letting them affect the way I live.

It was said (I'm not quite sure of the wording, so I'll paraphrase) sometime in the discussion that if we all had gone to college elsewhere, we'd have different friends and different experiences, and it wouldn't really matter.

Wouldn't really matter.

Maybe I took it personally, but I think it would matter. I think they'd matter. And everyone that I know and have met while being ~trapped~ here would matter. I don't think they're replaceable, but am I? Maybe so.

Maybe we're all just growing up, and some of us just aren't maturing accordingly.

On another subject:
I was also asked "Why are you doing THIS if you don't want THIS as a result?

I never said I didn't want it.
I just don't believe it's now.

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24 July 2008

I

want to curl up into a tiny little ball.

Why?


I wish I knew :(





16 July 2008

Graduation

I was thinking back to graduation, in 2006, and I remember being yelled at for taking off my shoes, because they kept sinking into the grass.

But, I also remember standing in the long line, and Mr. Bryan Franks coming up to me and hugging me, thanking me for the letter I wrote him.

My English teacher senior year, Victory Caldwell/Pope gave us the option on the last day of class to write "thank you" letters of sorts to teachers we liked/appreciated. I wrote one to Mme Babcock, Mr. Demanby and Mr. Franks.

In Mr. Franks' letter, I thanked him for having taught a really good Creative writing class the year before. That class got me "back into" writing, of sorts, and motivated me further to want to write my novel. I told him I appreciated him so much for that, and I will always think fondly of him and his class, amongst other similar things.

"Thank you so much for your letter, Aimee. You are a great girl, and a talented writer. I am going to keep that letter forever."

Mr. Franks is going to be one of the first few to get a free signed copy of my book, whenever I get around to writing it.

Perhaps even dedicated to him.
After all...
He motivated me :)

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Interesting.

I really want to see a ghost before I die, or at least have something unexplained happen. I think it would be exciting. I am fascinated by murders and serial killers, but I scared to death of being murdered. I want to do exciting things like ghost hunts, and visit haunted houses, but I'm a chicken. if things pop out, I scream. I like weird things, unsolved mysteries. They're very interesting to me.

But I'm a wuss.




in other news.
I really want to watch "The Number 23".



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15 July 2008

What say you

to packing up and moving across the country in like, five years.

Let's do it.
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Now playing: The Scene Aesthetic - Dear Time Traveler,
via FoxyTunes

10 July 2008

NEXT FUCKING THURSDAY

IS GOING TO BE FUCKING EPIC.

08 July 2008

Watch me take the lead.

this post of one of those posts in which you opened the blog, intending to write something meaningful and such, but you can't.
So you spout a bunch of bullshit and press publish.

That's what I'm doing right now.




P.S. All we do is make hats from bags.
Tamar Der Kevorkian rocks.

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Now playing: Cute Is What We Aim For - Do What You Do
via FoxyTunes

03 July 2008

THIS BLOG IS DEDICATED TO :

TAMAR DER KEVORKIAN :)

my stomach is killing me.
guys.
200 situps is excessive, i think.
My arms are super sore, too.
This better payoff, or I'ma kick DAS BOOTY.

I am wondering why some people are so retarded.
I sweaaaaaaaaaaar. Singing and whistling and just being generally idiotic in a workplace?
That shit don't fly.
I'll hulk smash you if you don't watch it.

in other news, i ran out of hangers, and need to go buy some more.
Hangers are the absolute BEST thing I can think of spending my money on.
Toooooooootally.

PAYCE.

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Now playing: Sufjan Stevens - Chicago
via FoxyTunes

01 July 2008

HEY THUR BLOGGY FREEEEEEENZ

HAIIIII.
Today I went to work, exercised, and am cleaning my room. I am also 100% determined to grow my nails out, so as of Saturday, biting my fingernails and ripping my toenails won't be happening :)
I feel really good, and really happy today, despite the fact that I'm broke again. But I'm still smiling. I feel like I have no reason NOT to smile.

Also, I'm gonna be sappy:
Photobucket
I miss this cutie boy a lot.

The End =)


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Now playing: Augustana - Rest, Shame, Love
via FoxyTunes

28 June 2008

it's all i do :)

it warms my heart to hear that i'm not pathetic :)
all i do lately is write letters, clean my room, work and sleep.
and i'm sort of okay with that.
in retrospect, it's sort of pathetic, but wtf, i really don't care.

Tomorrow I have a fun day planned :)
it's going to be great, just you wait!

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Now playing: Matchbox Twenty - Push
via FoxyTunes

22 June 2008

Weird.

Time flies so fast. It's insane. I was sitting and thinking about stuff, and "Boston" by Augustana came on.
I realized that it's because of "Boston" that my extremely, extremely good friend Max and I are friends.

And I realized that it was almost two years ago that Max and I met.
It's been two years since I graduated high school.
It's been almost two years since I started working at Starbucks.
It's almost been a year since I quit my first job.

It's crazy. I'm getting old. Life is moving quickly. I remember being 13, and not being able to wait until I was 16, and being 16 and wanting to be 18, and 18, wanting to be 21. And now, 21 is so much closer than I ever anticipated.

It's scary. My sister is going to be 13. My oldest brother is having a baby.

Where is life going!?!

"Life goes by pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."
-Ferris Bueller

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Now playing: Natasha Bedingfield - Love Like This (Feat. Sean Kingston)
via FoxyTunes

17 June 2008

=)))))

All I see is sunny skies
Everytime I look into your eyes
Here we go again my friend
Staying together till the end

It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day

Being down in the open air
Living life like we just dont care
Just doing what we want to do
Not doing what we supposed to do

It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day

We'll just flow
On top of the
Clouds that cover
Our skies I say

We'll just fly
On top of the
Clouds that cover
Our skies each day

It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day
It's gonna be
A lovely day



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Now playing: Donavon Frankenreiter - Lovely Day
via FoxyTunes

14 June 2008

I've always been the easy kill.

It's time to look on the bright side!
It's time to cheer up!

"Life is what you make it, make it good!" -Daniel Tosh

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Now playing: Jimmy Eat World - Kill
via FoxyTunes

13 June 2008

=(

Hopefully next week will be easier.
This week has been ...
not fun.

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Now playing: Travis - Sing
via FoxyTunes

05 June 2008

I hate the internet.

Posting a ranting blog about certain people in your life can never be published to the world.

It's unfortunate that a place you use to vent your feelings could make or break a friendship for life.

In other news.

I have a boyfriend.
And he's really adorable.

Like.
Really.
:)

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Now playing: The Last Goodnight - Incomplete
via FoxyTunes

01 June 2008

June 8th

That shit is coming too fast.
How annoying.
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Now playing: Jason Mraz - Bright Eyes
via FoxyTunes

27 May 2008

Drama.

Status: non-existent.
The world is better this way.

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Now playing: Sense Field - I Refuse
via FoxyTunes

25 May 2008

Before I die...

I have one less thing to do.

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Now playing: Hinder - Better than Me
via FoxyTunes

24 May 2008

i love music.

I seriously love just laying on my bed, headphones on, and zoning out to the music playing.
It's so calming.
It's fun.
And you notice lyrics better than you ever can otherwise.

I realized that to me, good music in my opinion is not just the beat.
Lyrics are supremely important.

and i like it :)

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Now playing: Snow Patrol - Signal Fire
via FoxyTunes

22 May 2008

sweet and low.



Oh Indy, why are you so hot?
And why was I so disappointed?

I have far too high hopes for certain things. Sometimes I don't know why I bother.
I am in a happy place currently.
Happy, and smiley.

I sleep too much, but that's definitely okay :)
I am excited for next weekend - I have Friday thru Monday off, and I am seriously looking forward to that.

I am not looking forward to work tomorrow, but work...bahh, it'll go by fast :)


Things are looking up.
And it might be because it's summer :)

18 May 2008

:)

I don't even know what to say.
:)

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Now playing: Cute Is What We Aim For - Finger Twist & Split
via FoxyTunes

09 May 2008

08 May 2008

The City Is At War

I can't stop listening to this song. *dances*

Lately I have found myself watching incredibly random movies that we have. Ones my father has purchased, and I've never watched, or films I haven't seen in a long, long time.

Today?
Clear and Present Danger.

Tomorrow?
Who knows.

Also, I am kinda...stupid.
If you don't know why, then you're not special enough for me to have shared my news.

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Now playing: Cobra Starship - The City Is At War
via FoxyTunes

07 May 2008

sometimes.

To all men out there in the world:
the way most of you act, it's no
wonder girls don't think you're worth their time.

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Now playing: John Mayer - Belief
via FoxyTunes

04 May 2008

hmm

"A wise girl kisses, but doesn't love;
Listens, but doesn't believe,
And leaves before she is left."

--Marilyn Monroe

01 May 2008

Good

Today was just a good day.
Every day I wake up, I am tired, today included.
But it was just...good.
Indescribably good.
Now I have the next two days off and I am beyond thrilled :)
It's gonna be good.
You should be a part of it.


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Now playing: Augustana - Sweet And Low
via FoxyTunes

29 April 2008

Today

marks the 50th post in this blog.
Sort of a mini-milestone in blogging history. Other than sharing this tidbit, I don't have much to say. I am going through a weird patch of confusion. I can't seem to separate real feelings from the fake. My moods vary.

I am beginning to feel more empowered and confident in certain aspects of life. Also, in others, I feel as though people don't seem to care as much as I do. And that's painful. I don't know why certain people rush to the aid of some at the drop of a hat, but for me? No. Not even a phone call. Just a "you'll be okay" via instant message.

They figure if I want to talk, I will come to them.

But sometimes you need that push.
You need someone to be like, "Let's talk about this."
You just need....someone.
Someone who will always be there.

You're not.
I am.
And I think I should stop.

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Now playing: Augustana - Where Love Went Wrong
via FoxyTunes

22 April 2008

Two posts in a day. Do you feel special?

My blogs have been becoming more and more emo lately, which is what I was hoping to stay away from when I started writing in it. I truly hoped to turn this blog into something fun, and creative, but in the end, it has become an outlet for my frustrations, and at times, my sadness. I must admit, however, that I don't care over much anymore. I never professed at the start of this blog that I would post movie reviews, or book reviews. I post whatever I want, whenever I want.

And really...
That's all I can ask for.
So, carry on, my wayward readers (all two of you out there) and go forth and prosper :]

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Now playing: The Ben Taylor Band - Time of the Season
via FoxyTunes

Really...

I had typed out this huge ranty blog, and posted it.

Then I edited it, and decided, "Why bother."

Exactly.
That's how I feel.
Why bother.


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Now playing: The Ben Taylor Band - Nothing Compares to You
via FoxyTunes

17 April 2008

8-)

Today was shitty.
Until I went to work.
Indescribable.
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Now playing: John Mayer - The Heart of Life
via FoxyTunes

15 April 2008

basically.

Well this is one time, well this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all...or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most

11 April 2008

Hmm....

I wonder what people will say about me at my funeral.

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Now playing: James Taylor - Don't Let Me Be Lonely Tonight
via FoxyTunes

05 April 2008

In other words, so sing along for me.

People say happiness is a state of mind. If that were true, it would probably be easier to be happy, right?
I have spent a lot of time attempting to put myself in the mindset of "You can make yourself happy." I've tried to think happy thoughts, look towards the positive.

I have come to the conclusion that you can't do that.

You just can't.

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Now playing: Mayday Parade - Three Cheers for Five Years
via FoxyTunes

01 April 2008

oh.

I'm not the jealous type
Who doesn't sleep at night
You've got your karma
I know I've got mine
And all my tears will air dry
With just a little time



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Now playing: The Maine - The Way We Talk
via FoxyTunes

31 March 2008

you're so vain

You probably think this blog is about you.
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Now playing: Big Dume - Antilove (Album Version)
via FoxyTunes

26 March 2008

.we were merely freshmen.

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
we'd never compromise.

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24 March 2008

Hey, fuck you starbucks dude...

I get my share of idiot customers, but I also have the good ones that make this job worth it.


Well, let's begin somewhere.

There is this guy, I shall call him Saint Bernard Guy (SBG for short).

This guy? Total tool. He's wealthy, has a lot of Starbucks stock. He comes in on Easter, and orders a "Seattle cup, for one dollar."

My shift: "Oh, sorry, they discontinued that."
SBG: "Oh...well then you DO know that refills are free?"
Shift: "Oh, they will be, but only..."
SBG: "Oh, whatever, it's okay, you OBVIOUSLY didn't read the shareholder's report. Whatever, it's fine."

Okay, douche bag, YOU didn't read it either. Free Refill with a registered starbucks card. And it hasn't even started yet.

Another guy came in, and looked at our tip jars. They are placed in an area that isn't too ostentatious, not in the way at all. He looks at them, scoffs and says, "You people actually believe you deserve to be tipped to make me coffee? I am paying $4 for a latte, so excuuuuuuuse me for not giving you my other arm."

Um...what?
A) If you're unhappy with prices, don't bitch to the baristas who can't do anything about it.
2) Again, if you're unhappy with the price, go somewhere else. Don't come into my store and go on a tirade about it. Why the fuck are you here, unless you wanted a latte? You don't like the prices? Go to McDonalds, please.

Get the fuck out, asshole.

I am not saying I deserve to be tipped, or that my job is harder than your job, but damn. At the very least we deserve respect, and to be able to work in an environment where tools like YOU aren't coming in to yell at us for things that are beyond our control.

I personally tip most places I go, just out of courtesy. If you don't like the fact that we get tipped and you don't, I'm sorry. I can't help it. I don't think I'm better than you, or deserve to receive tips more than you.

Another guy:
DUMBASS FUCK FACE: "I refuse to call them by your "starbucks brain programming names." Gimme a medium coffee.
Me: Grande coffee, would you like room for---
DFF: I SAID MEDIUM, NOT GRANDE.
Me: Grande coffee, please.
DFF: You're such a DRONE.
Me: Sir, we can get written up for not using the proper starbucks terminology as per our training. Grande coffee?

Douche bag #3:
Basically, he implied that every single person who works at starbucks is a consumer drone, who thinks they are better than everyone else because we work at ~starbucks coffee~. Also, we're stupid, with no aspirations in life at all.

My response: I enjoy working here because of the environment, sir. I enjoy people and enjoy helping people. While I don't see myself working here forever, it's an enjoyable job to work at while attending college.

DB3: Oh, you're in college? What are you plans?

Me: I'm majoring in English, and hope to go into publishing one day.

DB3: Publishing? Oooh, nice way to get your hands dirty.

WHAT THE FUCK.




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Now playing: The Maine - If I Only Had The Heart
via FoxyTunes

14 March 2008

....

this is harder than I thought.

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Now playing: OneRepublic - Apologize
via FoxyTunes

All I Find Are Souvenirs From A Better Time.

Last night I spent a couple of hours cleaning my room.
Upon cleaning my room, I found some old pictures. Pictures from days where I had a perma-smile on my face. Where I knew I had someone to call at all times for a hug, or just to chat about anything and everything.

Now I feel like I don't have that anymore. It's a really terrible feeling when you feel as though you are just an inconvenience, or a person that someone calls up when you're their last resort.

If only I could go back to the days of things being decidedly uncomplicated. What did I do in a past life that made me deserve this, hmm?

I try too hard to be nice.

I feel...on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.

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Now playing: Rogue Wave - Lake Michigan
via FoxyTunes

09 March 2008

This is crap.

I seriously suck. Time after time, I find myself in the same exact situation. I just want everything to be different, and good.

I need to stop letting myself get walked over.

I'm thinking I should stop being so considerate and helpful. Because really? What does it get me?

Absolutely fucking nothing.
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02 March 2008

It just takes time.

I'm about ready to cash in all my good juju.

24 February 2008

Hmph.

In not so many words, I was recently told that I needed to "snap out of" my depression.

Maybe if these two people were aware of what depression was, they'd know that "snapping out of it" isn't how it works.

Telling oneself, "Oh hey, I'm not going to be depressed!" doesn't work.

Do some research, seriously.


And people who are happy aren't allowed to tell people who aren't that they need to be happy.

Also, saying, "There are people who are worse off" isn't helpful either. I am fully aware that there are other people in the world who are worse off. However, those people are not me, and really, I should be worrying about my own well-being and that of my friends before I start to worry about people I don't know or never will know.

Get over yourself, [insert two people here].

11 February 2008

I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full.
I need some meaning I can memorize.
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind.

08 February 2008

<3

I am too young to worry about love.

So.


I'm over it.


For now.

07 February 2008

when I'm around you I'm predictable

I had this whole blog written out, defending myself against something someone said to me today.






Until I realised he was right.

27 January 2008

And thus...

So today at work, I am doing my job, cleaning things, putting them away, setting up the closers for their close. Ryan, a co-worker says, "So, Aimee, what's on your mind?" I say, "Nothing." He persists, and says, "you have a very intense look on your face. You're thinking about something."

Honest to God, I could NOT think of one thing that was on my mind, other than "Clean clean clean clean. Oh hey, Regg just walked by the door. I'm talking to Ryan." My mind was oddly blank. There were no thoughts other than what I was doing in my mind, and it was an odd thing. Usually I spend the time I have while cleaning thinking about things going on in my life.

Certainly, I am aware of the various confusions I have in my head, worries about school, worries about exactly what the fuck I'm going to do with my life, money, etc. I know they exist and usually at work they are a persistent bugger in the back of my mind. Actually, they usually are in my mind 24/7. But today was different.

Ryan and I also discussed what we would do if we could do anything without worrying about money and the like. I said:
Travel the world under a fake name. Take pictures of whatever I want when I want. Write a movie. Write a novel. Learn Italian from a real Italian. Learn French from a real French person. Get drunk on French wine. Dig a really big hole for no reason. Go on an Africa safari. Hit on random people just because I'll never see them again. Get into a fight. Talk to a complete stranger and tell them my life story. Talk to a complete stranger and lie about my life story. Overcome my fear of heights.


It was a really nice feeling to talk about That sort of thing. We also discussed how it's almost a necessity to know what we want to do with our lives, even though we're so young. Why is it necessary to know exactly how we want to live our lives 10 years from now? Why do we need to spend our youth working towards being an adult? This gives us no time to actually be adolescents.

Does anyone else feel the pressure to grow up?
I do.

And I hate it.

16 January 2008

Fortunes.

You all know about those ridiculous facebook fortunes, that say things like, "Write a book in your lifetime" and "An old friend will find you."

Usually I find a good one, and keep it for ages, not really thinking about it.

Today, I finally changed mine after almost a month.

Sometimes, it is that obvious.


But really, I wonder.....

Is it always that clear?

10 January 2008

I wanted to say....

And I didn't.

That's the end of it.




I'm so tired lately.

Yuck.

04 January 2008

Hmph.

I love how quickly a good mood can go *pyoooooooooooooooooooo*. Straight into the ground.

02 January 2008

Judy dolls

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Now playing: Taking Back Sunday - Make Damn Sure
via FoxyTunes I am watching Grey's Anatomy.

At first, I was upset at Addison.

Example:
"WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU CHEAT ON MCDREAMY!?!?!"





Until I saw McSteamy.



Know what I mean?